Life Update

My life has been a whirlwind these past three weeks:
24+ hours serving on Blazers Selection Committee
2 Biochemistry tests (this is my first full week of the year without a test!)
Mr. Plan II 2009 (which was the biggest success in the past few years!)
2 Papers written (out of a total of 3 this semester) for Yoga as Philosophy and Practice and Art History
Helping to Co-Chair our Frisbee Fling (our Texas Blazers big philanthropy event for the year) and therefore now a member of the extended executive board of Blazers
Filled out about 8 scholarship applications...ugh
And the usual: 16 hours of class, 9 hours at the P2 Office, 5-6 hours at Lab, Gym, KIPP

Also I have almost fully decided to go ahead and do Teach for America (hopefully in DC?) after I graduate. Medical school will be able to help me out and let me defer my admission and honestly, I don't think I'll have an opportunity like this ever again. But we'll see as things get closer.

SOOOO excited for Rome Summer 2009
weekend plans for that trip: Portofino, Florence, ???, ???

I really want to do one of those 25 things list...but I find it at times a bit superficial and I really want to think about them a while before I go for it. So I'm thinking I'll do a couple at a time. Here goes.

1.) Although it may not seem like it, I lack confidence in front of an audience. Familiar or not. I think it stemmed from the fact I was a huge theater nerd in late middle/early high school. I was put into the the theatre master class both freshmen and sophomore year. For early sophomore year I quit band because I felt that drama was calling. (My parents later confessed they thought I was going to be an actor and were quite worried about my future) However the directors changed (again, ugh.) I swear this job at our high school was like the DADA job in Harry Potter (both directors changed EVERY year for all four years of my high school). These new directors felt the master class was too big and they made everybody re-audition and it was just an awful audition and they didn't know my past and all...but I didn't make the cut and I went running back to band with a shattered confidence. But I do not regret my decision to ditch theatre for band...I made some of my best high school friends from band and it wouldn't have been the same without them. But that whole experience shook me up--I hate speaking up in front of classes or groups of people (and now I have to every week because I am the step in secretary for Blazers) and the thing was I didn't used to be. It's something I am rather depressed about.

2.) I identified my weakest weakness recently. I hate it when there is nothing I can do when someone I dearly care about is hurt or unhappy. I get depressed. Whether it is a big breakup or lack of a job or something else. I wish I could suture up that broken heart or use shady contacts to secure a job for these people. I hate it because I can only do so much.

ok back to Art History...we're spending a whole day on the Stanze Room next week! I am so excited. For those of you who don't know what that is--its a room in the Vatican right before the Sistine Chapel that expresses the four noble arts: poetry, philosophy (School of Athens--which is on my wall!!!!), theology, and justice.